Today I write to you because it's the FIRST day (well 2nd day by the time this entry gets posted) NEW YEAR! I cannot believe that 2013 is already here! I feel like I was just meeting 2012, and now the year is over! Sweet girl, I cannot believe how fast time flies! I just can't get over how fast it really does go by. I can remember being a kid and saying I can't wait to grow up. Once I was a grown up I couldn't wait to get a job, get married, start a family. And now that all my dreams have come true...I just wish it would slow down. You blink...and it all goes by. It's been wonderful though, truly it has. And I wouldn't change a thing about it, because it lead me right where I need to be, and that's being your mommy!
With today being a NEW YEAR, everyone normally uses this time to start New Year's Resolutions. Every year people pick goals (realistic, and sometimes even unattaiable goals) but we pick things we want to accomplish, rather losing weight, growing in their relationship with God, eating healthier, the list goes on and on.
Every year, I maybe meet half my goals. Which I actually consider a success. Based on last year's 2012 goals I met some of them.
Here's a few (I am showing these only because I do feel it's important to reflect..what's the point of making goals if you never refer to them...haha)
Blue font=2012 goals PINK font=description of met or not met goal, hehe
1)Lose 20 lbs! I want to be at least pre baby weight if not better! I pray God that I can create and stick to a diet and excersise program!
I DID MEET this goal! BUT NOT by diet and excersise! I am about 20lbs lighter but 20 more lbs lighter than I was prebaby weight! So I lost a total of about 40 lbs!Thank you nursing Raegan!!!
2) Be the best Mommy and wife to my sweet family! God help me to be Proverbs 31 woman! Help me to be the woman my husband deserves and the mother Raegan deserves to have.
I DID MEET THIS GOAL! Not to toot my own horn, but I am a pretty awesome mommy and wife! Hehe! I could always do better, but I did a pretty good job! hehe!
3) Pay off debt. I would love to be able to be a stay at home mommy ONE DAY! It may not happen next year or the next, but I know if we can work on some of our debt we will be in a better situation to make a sound decision. I plan to read Dave Ramsey's book and create a plan with my sweet husband. Because even if I keep working, it still would be nice to pay off debt and save more! God help us to be discplined in our finanicial plans!
GOAL NOT MET! :( Sad that we didn't meet this goal. We came up with great plans for implementing this, but were unrealistic when it came to gas money, childcare, money we actually need to spend, etc. So we pretty much talked about it always, but never went into full implementation. SAD!!!!!!!!!!!
4) I pray God that I will also find a balance between home and work. I want to be the best mommy and wife in the world to my sweet family, BUT I also want to be the best teacher I can possibly be. Finding balance between the two is going to be hard for me God, so help me draw the line, and do a great job at home and at work!
MAKING PROGRESS....still lots of room for improvements
5) For years, Drew and I have said we need to create a meal plan. We always ponder over what to cook every night and we end up wasting so much time just figuring out what to eat. I pray God that we will sit down together and actually come up with some delicious healthy meals for our family and stick to the plan.
NOT MET....yea, we did this for a week, and never stuck to it...dang it...
6) I also want to update my blog at least once a month! And make-up 3 postings from the past 3 months since Raegan has been born!
MET! I did update my blog at least once a month for 11/12 months. So although it's not a complete 100% I consider it pretty good effort so yay for me!!! :)
But like I said, I feel it's important to reflect on what you did do last year, so there's my reflection on last year's goals. Not the best, not the worse...haha!
But anyway onto this year!!!
I have been pondering for a week now what my 2013 new year's resolutions should be. When my head hit the pillow last night I was nervous. New things have me anxious. They make me nervous. It's one of my quirks. As the ball dropped last night I was actually sad that 2012 had ended. Because that meant a new year full of unknowns. My insides tightened up and I even woke your daddy as I told him all that I was feeling (after our midnight kiss of course).
And honestly it didn't even hit me till I woke up this morning (well yesterday by the time I post this blog) on what my resolutions should be this year.
I came up with ONE New Year's Resolution. One simple yet very complex goal.
Live my life with GOD as the CENTER of it!
Sounds easy doesn't it? or does it make you want to run the other way and say no way this is my life???
Well to me, it's sounds easy, but if you look at what all that entails its sounds very very complex. Sounds so unattaniable. So hard.
But as I sit here and wrote that statement on facebook this morning I think to myself if I am a Christian this is what I am suppose to do. I need to be living my life for God. Everything I do should be for Him. He should be the center of my marriage, my career, my fianciances, my friendships, my relationships, my home. I should be more holy. I should be more Christ like in all that I do. And I know this is something I will FALL short at numerous times I am sure. But I am okay with that. Because Jesus already paid the price for my sins, all I need to do is seek and ask for forgiveness.
I am a Chrisitian I have given my life to Christ, but the hard part is always letting Him be in control. So many times I have said, God I want You to do this and this, but I only want You to handle those things, I got the rest. WE are ALL guilty of this. It's so easy to do, but that's not what we should be doing. We need to let God be in control of ALL aspects of our life.
So for me this is what I think it's going to look like, well how I plan to start....And I say think because I don't know how else God will change my heart this year... so for now...this is what I think, maybe not God's plans but I am sure He will show me the way.
-I want God in the center of my home this includes my marriage and how we raise you Raegan Grace. I want you to grow in a loving godly home. I want you to see me praying, I want you to see me immersed in God's word, I want you to see your mommy making decisions that although I may be scared to make them I can be at peace in knowing that's what God wanted me to do. I want you to see me being a great mommy to you by caring for you and immersing you in God's word and raaising you in the way you should go.
Proverbs 22:6 Train up a child in the way he should go; even when he is old he will not depart from it
I want you to see me being a proverbs 31 wife and loving and respecting your father. I also want you to see me giving with my money and time to others. And give God full control over our finances. We must do better and I know we can, if I truly give it to God. I want to be the best mommy to you and the best wife to your daddy. I want to be more of a PROVERBS 31 woman :)
Proverbs 31 is sooo full of goodness, holiness...the title, scares me...yet entices me.
Proverbs 31:10-31
New International Version (NIV)
10 [a]A wife of noble character who can find?
She is worth far more than rubies.
11 Her husband has full confidence in her
and lacks nothing of value.
12 She brings him good, not harm,
all the days of her life.
13 She selects wool and flax
and works with eager hands.
14 She is like the merchant ships,
bringing her food from afar.
15 She gets up while it is still night;
she provides food for her family
and portions for her female servants.
16 She considers a field and buys it;
out of her earnings she plants a vineyard.
17 She sets about her work vigorously;
her arms are strong for her tasks.
18 She sees that her trading is profitable,
and her lamp does not go out at night.
19 In her hand she holds the distaff
and grasps the spindle with her fingers.
20 She opens her arms to the poor
and extends her hands to the needy.
21 When it snows, she has no fear for her household;
for all of them are clothed in scarlet.
22 She makes coverings for her bed;
she is clothed in fine linen and purple.
23 Her husband is respected at the city gate,
where he takes his seat among the elders of the land.
24 She makes linen garments and sells them,
and supplies the merchants with sashes.
25 She is clothed with strength and dignity;
she can laugh at the days to come.
26 She speaks with wisdom,
and faithful instruction is on her tongue.
27 She watches over the affairs of her household
and does not eat the bread of idleness.
28 Her children arise and call her blessed;
her husband also, and he praises her:
29 “Many women do noble things,
but you surpass them all.”
30 Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting;
but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised.
31 Honor her for all that her hands have done,
and let her works bring her praise at the city gate.
She is worth far more than rubies.
11 Her husband has full confidence in her
and lacks nothing of value.
12 She brings him good, not harm,
all the days of her life.
13 She selects wool and flax
and works with eager hands.
14 She is like the merchant ships,
bringing her food from afar.
15 She gets up while it is still night;
she provides food for her family
and portions for her female servants.
16 She considers a field and buys it;
out of her earnings she plants a vineyard.
17 She sets about her work vigorously;
her arms are strong for her tasks.
18 She sees that her trading is profitable,
and her lamp does not go out at night.
19 In her hand she holds the distaff
and grasps the spindle with her fingers.
20 She opens her arms to the poor
and extends her hands to the needy.
21 When it snows, she has no fear for her household;
for all of them are clothed in scarlet.
22 She makes coverings for her bed;
she is clothed in fine linen and purple.
23 Her husband is respected at the city gate,
where he takes his seat among the elders of the land.
24 She makes linen garments and sells them,
and supplies the merchants with sashes.
25 She is clothed with strength and dignity;
she can laugh at the days to come.
26 She speaks with wisdom,
and faithful instruction is on her tongue.
27 She watches over the affairs of her household
and does not eat the bread of idleness.
28 Her children arise and call her blessed;
her husband also, and he praises her:
29 “Many women do noble things,
but you surpass them all.”
30 Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting;
but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised.
31 Honor her for all that her hands have done,
and let her works bring her praise at the city gate.
-I also want God at the center of my career as well. Every day at work we do our morning prayer and thats a start. But I need to remember to be more Godly in all that I do. In how I teach, in how I interact with my students, parents, and coworkers. And just how I set about completing and doing my work in general. I must do it all for God.
Colossians 3:23 Whatever you do, work heartily, as for the Lord and not for men
Proverbs 16:3 Commit your work to the Lord, and your plans will be established.
Going to be hard, but it's something to strive for!
Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.
Looking forward to a great 2013 year! I hope we all have a great blessed year ahead of us!
Raegan Grace, I know I probably ventured off here and there, and may not have talked directly to you, but this is for you. I want you to know that God has plans for you too. I can't wait to see what they are my sweet child! TRUST IN HIM WITH ALL YOUR HEART AND JUST WATCH AND SEE THEM UNFOLD! I love you to the moon and back forever and always!
Love Mommy!
I read your posts and I feel like I am stepping into a private part of your life, you are so open and real, it's amazing. I love that you met so many of your goals. And the meal plan, girl Andrew is all about it, have a plan and yet, I'm the one that does it :) lol And I am so in love with your goal for this year, that is something I want to focus on every year, as I know you do as well. I think the verses you chose and the way you explained it shows how much you are putting God as the center! I hope to grow in the ways I see you already growing! Happy New Year!
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