Oh my dear blogger reader friends, I have done a horrible job keeping up with this blog over the summer and since school started back. I'm so sorry!
But I write today with GREAT and EXCITING news. On Friday, I went to the doctor for my 37 week checkup and I was already 4cm dilated and almost completly effaced. The doctor decided based on my increasing blood pressure at each visit, that she would go ahead and induce me on Wednesday September 28th! So 5 days later! I couldn't believe my ears and honestly couldn't stop smiling ALL day!
So Friday, I spent my last unexpected day with my sweet first graders. They were sad. One little girl even told me she wasn't coming back to school until I came back. And even went on to say I wish you never got pregnant and I wish we were still in kindergarten (I looped with my babies from last year). It was sad and heart breaking all in one. I felt bad for my students, because although I have been preparing them that someone else would take over my class until the New Year I didn't quite expect it to happen so soon. So we said our goodbyes and I promised to visit them and send them pictures of the baby.
Friday, I ended up staying after school until 8pm. Although I had been prepared and had all my sub plans done, I still had some things I needed to do and that included going over my sub plans with my long term sub. Now my sub wasn't in the sub system yet, so I didn't want her to observe my class quite yet incase something fell through...so she never got a chance to see me teach :( . But this week she is going to go watch Angela teach (we basically do the same thing so at least she can see how Angela teaches). But anyway I met with my (hopeful) sub, fingers are crossed that the district gets her in the system so she can start very soon with my babies. I want them to have as much conistency as possible!
So that leads us to now... it's Tuesday...almost Wednesday. Last night Drew and I spent our last date night as just a family of 2 before becoming a family of 3 tomorrow. We had a lovely dinner and just enjoyed time together.
So tomorrow is the BIG D-DAY...delivery day! I am soooooooooo beyond excited and nervous all wrapped up in one. Although it's hit me that she is coming I don't honestly think it's truly hit me... Every night since Friday I wake up wondering if she is going to come before Wednesday. The doctor said that it was very possible she would come early on her own. But so far, no Raegan Grace. I am okay with her coming Wednesday. It gave me time to prepare mentally and gave me two days off work just to relax. I would love for her to come on her own tonight without being induced tomorrow morning, but God has His plan and I honor that.
I know tonight I am going to be a bunch of nerves. I won't be able to sleep. It's going to be soooooo exciting and anxiety is going to take over. We have to be at Lexington Hospital at 5am tomorrow morning...TOMORROW...wow...seems so weird to say that! But 5am TOMORROW morning and they will start the induction process and then at 7am the doctor will get there and break my water...and hopefully after not too long of a labor our little blessing, Miss Raegan Grace will make her apperance!!!!!!! I can't believe TOMORROW I will be holding our little girl!
God,
I just pray that you will be with me and Drew as we prepare for delivery and just give us strength as we enter into this next journey. God PLEASE oh PLEASE let Raegan be healthy and breathing on her own. Please just let everything go smoothly and safely for Baby girl and myself. Be with the doctors and the nurses as they take care of us both. God wrap Yourself around Raegan and just help her enter this world ready to do Your work.
God, help Drew and I as we bring Raegan into this world. Help us to be Godly parents. Help us surround her with Your love and presence. God be with her. Let her know You God, let her accept You into her life and let her be the Child of God You want her to be.
God, I am so thankful. SOOOOOOOOO thankful for this opportunity to have a family. A true family. God, I know in my life especially growing up I had so many hard times, so many times that I just wanted to give up, so many bad memories. I felt so unloved by my parents and God although I never felt love in my home, I felt LOVE by You God. You were always there for me when I needed You. You have let me grow into this woman that I am today. And I cannot thank you enough for Your many blessings. For allowing me to marry my sweet wonderful husband, for giving us our careers, our home..... and now for giving us a child. A child to raise in Your ways God. Thank you God. Thank you so much for blessing us. For even letting me have those hard times growing up, to all the moments leading to this special moment. You are God, You are AMAZING, You are so MARVELOUS and I cannot express my grattitude for what You have done for me in my life and by giving me this opportunity to create a family centered around You and Your love!!!
AMEN
Raegan Grace,
Mommy and daddy are so ready for you! We can't wait to hold you in our arms and surround you with love. You are already so dear to us in our hearts and our love for you can only grow from this point on. You are our everything and we are soooooo excited to meet you and introduce you to this life that God has given us. May God bless you always our sweet sweet little blessing from God!
Love always and forever,
Mommy!
