Dear Raegan Grace,
Tonight as I was rocking you to sleep (which by the way doesn't really happen that I rock you to sleep. It's more of you nursing for 5 minutes while I rock you then you sitting up and me laying you in your crib) but tonight you were soo precious. You sat up but instead of getting antsy you laid your sweet head on my shoulder. So we just rocked. Me soaking in all your sweetness smelling your freshly washed hair and the lotion on you. You were so sweet. Head all nozzled up against my neck. It was a perfect moment. I decided I would take a picture of you sleeping sweetly on me and when I took the picture on my phone I looked at it you were all smiles. It was so very sweet (see pic below) Made me feel like you were savoring the moment too!
Tomorrow is Christmas Eve. I can't believe it. Although, it feels like the holiday season with the Christmas tree up, nativity scene, lights up outside, Christmas movies on tv, wonderful time with friends and family. It all adds up to Christmas time, but yet to me it just doesn't feel like tomorrow is Christmas Eve and that Santa will come tomorrow. It's crazy to me.
Tomorrow we will be making our annual breakfast for dinner on Christmas Eve and then headed to Christmas Eve service at church, then coming home to make birthday cupcakes for Jesus while daddy goes back to work. And then Santa will come and we will wake up and it will be Christmas day and you will open your presents and will eat dinner and read the christmas story. The plans are all there. The traditions are there. And honestly I can't wait for all these events to happen.
I think the reason it doesn't feel like Christmas to me is that I don't want it to be here because then it will have to end. The next two days will fly by and then it's over. All the excitement, all the traditions, will all be put away until next year. Christmas break will be over etc. and mommy is not ready for all that.
Time just flies now that you are here and I wish it didn't but it does. I am trying my best to soak up every minute with you. Every minute we spend with our friends and our family I cherish it with you. And I thank God that He blessed us with you.
I hope as you get older that you will cherish everything there is to cherish about the Christmas season. I hope that you will carry on some of our traditions, but start some of your own traditions too. I hope that you will cherish every moment with your friends and your family. That you will not get caught up in the hustle and the bustle of the season but remember the true reason for the season. I hope that you will teach your kids the Christmas story like mommy is teaching you and that its not about what you get for Christmas but the true meaning of Christ.
I love you my sweet sweet blessing! Always have and always will! I am so excited to have this 2nd Christmas with you and all the joy it will bring to my heart as we create so many memories and learn about Christ together! I love you all the way to the moon and back forever and always!
Merry Christmas my sweet blessing!
Love,
Mommy
