When my brother and I were kids I can remember waking up in the middle of the night throwing up (or waking up to my brother throwing up) and can remember crying and feeling soooo sick. I can remember tip toeing to my parents room and knocking ever so lightly on their door to tell them I (or my brother) was sick. Their response always surprised me "oh you're sick. Go back to bed, sleep it off" and my response but "I'm throwing up and my bed is a mess".... "Take some medicine and change your sheets, you will be okay"
Okay.... Yep okay I was and okay I am today.
But I still can't help but to reflect back on this. I would imagine I was in elementary school. I just can't imagine as a mother or a father telling my child to go take care of themselves when they are vomiting. And the worst part, I can remember being sick vomiting ALOT as a child too... That's the sad part. I am sure I reached a time in my life where I no longer knocked on my parents door to let them know I was sick. I just took care of myself.
I can remember many nights getting up as a child and taking care of myself or taking care of my brother when he was sick. I can remember going to the medicine cabinet getting my own medicine. I can remember stripping down my sheets off my bed then going to sleep on the couch because I had no extra sheets to put on my bed. I can remember standing in the bathroom with my older brother when he would awake sick and bringing him medicine. I can even remember him coming into my room in the middle of the night and sleeping on my floor because we was sick. I can remember him even asking me one night if it was normal to pee blood. The list goes go and on.
As a mother now, I look reflect back on those early years of my life in awe. Tonight Raegan was very sick. She was vomiting over and over and it was completely breaking my heart. I could never imagine telling Raegan "go back to bed, sleep it off" I cannot imagine not getting up with her in the middle of the night or telling her to go take care of herself.
Now I know Raegan is a baby and that's different than a child. And I am sure (well hopeful) that my parents got up with me as a baby, but even when Raegan is older. Heck, she could be an adult but (I had an explicit word here then my fruits of the spirit came back to me) if she's puking her guts out I WILL be there holding her hair out of her face (SN: call me crazy but maybe thats why my hair ALWaYS has to be in a pony tail at night to this day) or rubbing her back (just like I was tonight). I will be there getting her the medicine she needs and changing her sheets. And I will be the one climbing in bed with her or welcoming her in my bed to comfort her. I don't care if I am puked on a million times (which by the way I went through four changes of clothes myself tonight).
Now I know Raegan can't talk yet, but one day she will. And when I hear her sweet sick voice on the other side of my bedroom door telling me she doesn't feel good you can bet I am going to do everything in my power to help her feel better.
Children are precious gifts from God. I hope that everyone treats their children as precious gifts. I know I sure do value and thank God for my sweet blessing!
All this reminded me of this quote:
"Not a way to be a perfect mother but a million ways to be a good one"
Raegan Grace,
I promise you no matter how sick you are I will always take care of you! You will never experience what I did as a child I can promise you that! I will do everything in my power to be a good mother to you! Please know just how much I want your life to be different than mine. Please know my sweet baby girl just how much I would do anything in the world for you. And this stomach bug that is causing you so much discomfort tonight if I could take all the pain away from you I surely would. I love you Raegan Grace! You are my sweet oh so sweet blessing and I am praying that God heals your illness very soon! I love you all the way to the moon and back forever and always!!!
Love Mommy!!!
Wednesday, November 21, 2012
Saturday, October 27, 2012
Slow down button
Dear Raegan grace,
In less than 24 hours you will be 13 months old!
Where oh where does the time go??? I really wish there was a slow down button so that I could just keep you little forever!
But I know if I keep you little forever I won't get to see you do so many wonderful things (just like in the book Aunt Katie gave you for your birthday)! I know you will do wonderful things. It's really just bittersweet. I am so proud of all that you are doing but I still miss how little you use to be!
Time just flies by us. It really does... I thought I just woke up and now it's past my bedtime!!! Crazy I tell you crazy how when we are little time is not on our side, then just when we think it is, we have a child and bam time hates us again and we wish for it to just slow down.
Raegan Grace, mommy loves you. I am trying to so hard to slow down! I don't want to blink and miss a single thing with you. God, is it easy to do! But I am trying to relish in you as much a so can!
You were so sweet today. We went and saw Aunt Katie and Uncle Brendon and watched the football game with them. You were such a sweet girl and smitten with Uncle brendon! :)
When we left to go home you were so tired and refused to go to sleep in the car. You finally fell asleep 5 mins before we got home and when I took you out your carseat to put you down for your nap you refused so out of your crib you came and you played hard!
Your such an independent child. You took your high chair seat and spent 5 mins figuring out a way to get it off the couch. Then the tray fell off and you spent another 20+ mins trying to figure out how to put it back on! So persistent you were! It was so cute watching you sit in your chair, get up, and keep trying over and over to get that tray back on. You had daddy and I laughing and admiring!
You also kept sitting on your pony and it played "I'm a little pony" song over and over while you nodded your head up and down with the sweetest most prideful look across your face! I really love that look! You were so proud of yourself! Ohhh how I adore you!
Your such an amazing baby! You fill my life with so much pleasure and love! My oh so happy sweet baby! I love you Raegan Grace Smallwood all the way to the moon and back forever and always!
Love Mommy!
In less than 24 hours you will be 13 months old!
Where oh where does the time go??? I really wish there was a slow down button so that I could just keep you little forever!
But I know if I keep you little forever I won't get to see you do so many wonderful things (just like in the book Aunt Katie gave you for your birthday)! I know you will do wonderful things. It's really just bittersweet. I am so proud of all that you are doing but I still miss how little you use to be!
Time just flies by us. It really does... I thought I just woke up and now it's past my bedtime!!! Crazy I tell you crazy how when we are little time is not on our side, then just when we think it is, we have a child and bam time hates us again and we wish for it to just slow down.
Raegan Grace, mommy loves you. I am trying to so hard to slow down! I don't want to blink and miss a single thing with you. God, is it easy to do! But I am trying to relish in you as much a so can!
You were so sweet today. We went and saw Aunt Katie and Uncle Brendon and watched the football game with them. You were such a sweet girl and smitten with Uncle brendon! :)
When we left to go home you were so tired and refused to go to sleep in the car. You finally fell asleep 5 mins before we got home and when I took you out your carseat to put you down for your nap you refused so out of your crib you came and you played hard!
Your such an independent child. You took your high chair seat and spent 5 mins figuring out a way to get it off the couch. Then the tray fell off and you spent another 20+ mins trying to figure out how to put it back on! So persistent you were! It was so cute watching you sit in your chair, get up, and keep trying over and over to get that tray back on. You had daddy and I laughing and admiring!
You also kept sitting on your pony and it played "I'm a little pony" song over and over while you nodded your head up and down with the sweetest most prideful look across your face! I really love that look! You were so proud of yourself! Ohhh how I adore you!
Your such an amazing baby! You fill my life with so much pleasure and love! My oh so happy sweet baby! I love you Raegan Grace Smallwood all the way to the moon and back forever and always!
Love Mommy!
Friday, October 19, 2012
Perfect night!
Dear Raegan Grace,
It's sooo good to have my sweet baby girl back to your normal happy self after battling an ear infection for the last two weeks!
You still have a good bit of a cough, and a really runny nose, but your spirits are much happier which means mommy is much happier!
I hated to see you so miserable these last few weeks!
Tonight, when we got home you just roamed the house! Digging in boxes, pulling out toys. You were running around in the kitchen just circling the table and laughing. It was so cute. While, I was cooking dinner I just listened to you play with a huge smile on my face. You were babbling about this and that. Every time you do that it makes my mind wonder about what you really are saying! Lol!
I then sat myself in the middle of the kitchen floor so I could watch you play on your level and you continued babbling and circling me. You would take little breaks and come sit on my lap and lay your sweet head against me (only a few seconds, but enough to let me know you loved me and missed me). Basically, melting my heart and warming it with sooo much sweetness!
At one point when you took a break sitting in my lap, Jackson came over and started licking your face as you tilted your head back and your hair flopped back and forth as I held you in my arms. You just laughed and laughed as Jackson gave you doggy smooches!
As I watched You play in the kitchen my heart overfilled with joy. I took in every second of watching you take joy in the simple things in life.
We also opened a present from granny, two adorable hats: one cute sock monkey hat and one owl hat! The first picture you let me take was beyond precious as you smiled with all your cheeks! You walked around the house for a good 5-10 mins until I put the owl hat on you then you just sat there taking the hat on and off! Lol!
While skyping with Granny you would blow rasberries every time Granny did it and it was sooo funny! You even climbed up on the car Pops got you and pushed your little feet against the floor to make it go. You literally did not stop smiling the whole time you sat on your car. You even sat on your pony too and bobbed your head up and down to the tune of my little pony! You really were sooo cute! God is sooo good to me to bless me with such a beautiful sweet blessing! I am still in awe at just how blessed I am!
Tonight, was a perfect night for you Raegan. A night that was so simple yet such a beautiful memory in my mind and heart! You are absolutely perfect and I love you with all my heart!
Thank you my sweet blessing for filling my heart with so much love!
I love you to the moon and back forever and always!
Love, mommy!
It's sooo good to have my sweet baby girl back to your normal happy self after battling an ear infection for the last two weeks!
You still have a good bit of a cough, and a really runny nose, but your spirits are much happier which means mommy is much happier!
I hated to see you so miserable these last few weeks!
Tonight, when we got home you just roamed the house! Digging in boxes, pulling out toys. You were running around in the kitchen just circling the table and laughing. It was so cute. While, I was cooking dinner I just listened to you play with a huge smile on my face. You were babbling about this and that. Every time you do that it makes my mind wonder about what you really are saying! Lol!
I then sat myself in the middle of the kitchen floor so I could watch you play on your level and you continued babbling and circling me. You would take little breaks and come sit on my lap and lay your sweet head against me (only a few seconds, but enough to let me know you loved me and missed me). Basically, melting my heart and warming it with sooo much sweetness!
At one point when you took a break sitting in my lap, Jackson came over and started licking your face as you tilted your head back and your hair flopped back and forth as I held you in my arms. You just laughed and laughed as Jackson gave you doggy smooches!
As I watched You play in the kitchen my heart overfilled with joy. I took in every second of watching you take joy in the simple things in life.
We also opened a present from granny, two adorable hats: one cute sock monkey hat and one owl hat! The first picture you let me take was beyond precious as you smiled with all your cheeks! You walked around the house for a good 5-10 mins until I put the owl hat on you then you just sat there taking the hat on and off! Lol!
While skyping with Granny you would blow rasberries every time Granny did it and it was sooo funny! You even climbed up on the car Pops got you and pushed your little feet against the floor to make it go. You literally did not stop smiling the whole time you sat on your car. You even sat on your pony too and bobbed your head up and down to the tune of my little pony! You really were sooo cute! God is sooo good to me to bless me with such a beautiful sweet blessing! I am still in awe at just how blessed I am!
Tonight, was a perfect night for you Raegan. A night that was so simple yet such a beautiful memory in my mind and heart! You are absolutely perfect and I love you with all my heart!
Thank you my sweet blessing for filling my heart with so much love!
I love you to the moon and back forever and always!
Love, mommy!
Friday, September 28, 2012
Raegan Grace is ONE!!!
ONE year ago today....
6:16pm September 28, 2011 I gave birth to a beautiful 7 lbs 14 oz precious baby girl!
I can't believe it's been a year, 365 days since the day you were placed on my chest and you stole my heart forever! I held you so close I still remember as soon as I saw you I kept saying over and over "oh my God, she is so beautiful, just look at her, she is so beautiful!" Beautiful life breathed inside of me, grew inside of me for a little over 37 weeks and here I am meeting you and holding you in my arms after so much anticipation of your arrival. I was in complete awe over you and I still am one year later!
And beautiful you still are my sweet blessing! Watching you over the last 12 months grow and learn so many new things has been so beautiful! Life is beautiful. You are beautiful!
Today, mommy took work off and we spent the day together. We didn't do a lot but enough to fill mommy with pride and appreciation for you my sweet baby girl! You let mommy sleep in and then we ate and played together. We read books, you sat on my lap, you let mommy rock you. You laid your head on my neck and snuggled close to me, we did do a little shopping for your party. And we went this afternoon to get your ONE year pictures taken! Then we came home and daddy and I sang Happy birthday to you and you dug into your giant cupcake mommy and daddy made you! You were so funny, talking to the cupcake and when it was all over you sat so still in the bath tub while mommy scrubbed all the pink strawberry icing off of just about every inch of your body (literally head to toe).
I tried to Rock you tonight but you weren't having it. You were quite ready for your crib and I held onto you as long as you would let me before placing you in your crib.
I remember the days when you would only let me rock you to sleep. When you felt most comfortable in my arms. When you needed me to fall asleep. When the glider was our bed and my arms were your crib. My oh my where does the time go???
And here you are now, walking around the place, climbing everything, talking, being silly, falling asleep on your own, and just having the time of your life being a baby and getting all the love in the world! I just can't believe how much you have changed in such a short time!
My newborn is now beginning the toddler stage??? How crazy is that???
I can't wait to see what God has in store for you in the years to come! You are so wonderful and I just know God is going to use you in so many ways!!!
Mommy and daddy love you sooo very much Raegan Grace! You complete us and we adore you!!!
I hope one day when you look back and read this you will know just how much your mommy loves you and truly cherishes every moment! All I can say is if Facebook is still around I don't think you will ever catch up reading about your life! :) haha!
Just know when you have you own baby one day! Take in and cherish every moment. It all goes by in a blink of an eye!!! It really does!!!
Happy FIRST birthday Raegan Grace Smallwood I truly do love you to the moon and back forever and always! You will always be my sweet blessing and my most perfect gift from God!!!
Love mommy!
6:16pm September 28, 2011 I gave birth to a beautiful 7 lbs 14 oz precious baby girl!
I can't believe it's been a year, 365 days since the day you were placed on my chest and you stole my heart forever! I held you so close I still remember as soon as I saw you I kept saying over and over "oh my God, she is so beautiful, just look at her, she is so beautiful!" Beautiful life breathed inside of me, grew inside of me for a little over 37 weeks and here I am meeting you and holding you in my arms after so much anticipation of your arrival. I was in complete awe over you and I still am one year later!
And beautiful you still are my sweet blessing! Watching you over the last 12 months grow and learn so many new things has been so beautiful! Life is beautiful. You are beautiful!
Today, mommy took work off and we spent the day together. We didn't do a lot but enough to fill mommy with pride and appreciation for you my sweet baby girl! You let mommy sleep in and then we ate and played together. We read books, you sat on my lap, you let mommy rock you. You laid your head on my neck and snuggled close to me, we did do a little shopping for your party. And we went this afternoon to get your ONE year pictures taken! Then we came home and daddy and I sang Happy birthday to you and you dug into your giant cupcake mommy and daddy made you! You were so funny, talking to the cupcake and when it was all over you sat so still in the bath tub while mommy scrubbed all the pink strawberry icing off of just about every inch of your body (literally head to toe).
I tried to Rock you tonight but you weren't having it. You were quite ready for your crib and I held onto you as long as you would let me before placing you in your crib.
I remember the days when you would only let me rock you to sleep. When you felt most comfortable in my arms. When you needed me to fall asleep. When the glider was our bed and my arms were your crib. My oh my where does the time go???
And here you are now, walking around the place, climbing everything, talking, being silly, falling asleep on your own, and just having the time of your life being a baby and getting all the love in the world! I just can't believe how much you have changed in such a short time!
My newborn is now beginning the toddler stage??? How crazy is that???
I can't wait to see what God has in store for you in the years to come! You are so wonderful and I just know God is going to use you in so many ways!!!
Mommy and daddy love you sooo very much Raegan Grace! You complete us and we adore you!!!
I hope one day when you look back and read this you will know just how much your mommy loves you and truly cherishes every moment! All I can say is if Facebook is still around I don't think you will ever catch up reading about your life! :) haha!
Just know when you have you own baby one day! Take in and cherish every moment. It all goes by in a blink of an eye!!! It really does!!!
Happy FIRST birthday Raegan Grace Smallwood I truly do love you to the moon and back forever and always! You will always be my sweet blessing and my most perfect gift from God!!!
Love mommy!
Wednesday, September 5, 2012
Snuggles!
Dear Raegan,
It's 11:30 at night and mommy is sitting here rocking you in the glider. I had just finished school work and was about to attempt sleep when I heard you fussing in your crib.
So mommy came to the rescue and now you are safely in my arms (well my lap now that you found your comfy spot). Ohhh seeing your sweet little face with your arms and legs wrapped around me makes mommy want nothing more than to stay up late taking you in. Snuggling with you! Enjoying everything about this perfect moment with you. Makes me want to call into work tomorrow and say nope can't come mommy needs Raegan time! Haha!
I may just have to sneak you in the bed with me just to get my fix.
Ohhhh Raegan!!! Tonight it's hard to lay you back down. I think I will sit here a little longer "holding" you. Now you have rolled to your back and I can perfectly see your sweet little face with your hand behind your head looking so perfect and more and more like a big girl!
I still can't believe you are only 23 days away from being ONE year old!!!
Ohhh baby girl! I couldn't ask for a baby more perfect than you! I prayed for you and God blessed me with you! You are my perfect gift from above!
I love you to the moon and back forever and always!
Now back to our snuggles!
Love,
Mommy!
It's 11:30 at night and mommy is sitting here rocking you in the glider. I had just finished school work and was about to attempt sleep when I heard you fussing in your crib.
So mommy came to the rescue and now you are safely in my arms (well my lap now that you found your comfy spot). Ohhh seeing your sweet little face with your arms and legs wrapped around me makes mommy want nothing more than to stay up late taking you in. Snuggling with you! Enjoying everything about this perfect moment with you. Makes me want to call into work tomorrow and say nope can't come mommy needs Raegan time! Haha!
I may just have to sneak you in the bed with me just to get my fix.
Ohhhh Raegan!!! Tonight it's hard to lay you back down. I think I will sit here a little longer "holding" you. Now you have rolled to your back and I can perfectly see your sweet little face with your hand behind your head looking so perfect and more and more like a big girl!
I still can't believe you are only 23 days away from being ONE year old!!!
Ohhh baby girl! I couldn't ask for a baby more perfect than you! I prayed for you and God blessed me with you! You are my perfect gift from above!
I love you to the moon and back forever and always!
Now back to our snuggles!
Love,
Mommy!
Tuesday, September 4, 2012
It's been a while
Well Raegan is in bed... Mommy has two seconds to herself.... My to do list is overflowing BUT of course I have no desire to do it... I want some me time and my me time tonight wants to blog so I will put off the dishes, the housework, the school work, the many to do lists laying around my house to take care of my wants.
Life has been hectic. Crazy busy. No time to hardly even take a second to enjoy it.
Being back at work makes my head spin. Between trying to balance school work, housework, all the while taking care of a very active and mobile 11 month old is whew crazy!!!
But amongst all of it, I love it! In a way I feel more accomplished. I don't have time to put off stuff so more stuff is getting done even if I don't feel like it. Yes some things are getting put on the back burner but hey that's called life. We prioritize!
I'm enjoying my every moment with Raegan Grace. I can't wait to pick her up when I get off work and see the big ole smile light up her face! And then the way she snuggles against my neck to let me know she missed me too! Or the way if I sit there talking too long holding RG to Jordan she will lean her head in front of my face and smile as big as she can as if to say I'm here too mommy let's hit the road mommy! It's really too cute!!! Our times in the evenings go by too fast! By the time she is in bed I'm completely exhausted but I just love her! She's my whole world and I can't imagine life without her! Even with all her major messes she makes for me to clean she brings joy to my life as she explores every nook and cranny in this house... And I mean all of them! Tonight she discovered she could lift the toilet seat on her own?!!! Where oh where do they learn to be such inquirers??? I love it!! My little explorer seems to be on a new mission every night and I just love watching how much joy she gets out of the simple things in life!
Work is going well too! I love my team! We work well together and the planning is really coming together! Its definitely a lot of work with all the new stuff we are learning but we are truly doing the best we can! And did I mention I love my class???!!! Blessings for sure! They are too sweet!!! They make me smile! Today they told me "NOO I don't want to go home I want to keep learning!!!" three more chimed in and said the same thing! I mean can we say heart stop beating??? Jaw dropped huge smile slapped across my face??? I'm loving it!
Home is going well! Drew is wonderful! Sweet husband! He has actually been helping around the house more which is a huge burden off my chest. Also, tomorrow he starts a bible study at church. I'm quite proud of him for taking this next step! God is good!
We are blessed... Busy but truly blessed. Some days are harder than others but when I take a step back and look at it all... It's all worth it! Happy family, happy students= happy me! God is using me to do His work and I plan to continue to glorify Him in all that I do!
Be blessed! I Hope you all take a second to thank God for the craziness of your days! Sometimes it may feel like a blessing in disguise but breath it will all be worth it! Be blessed and thanks for reading!
Life has been hectic. Crazy busy. No time to hardly even take a second to enjoy it.
Being back at work makes my head spin. Between trying to balance school work, housework, all the while taking care of a very active and mobile 11 month old is whew crazy!!!
But amongst all of it, I love it! In a way I feel more accomplished. I don't have time to put off stuff so more stuff is getting done even if I don't feel like it. Yes some things are getting put on the back burner but hey that's called life. We prioritize!
I'm enjoying my every moment with Raegan Grace. I can't wait to pick her up when I get off work and see the big ole smile light up her face! And then the way she snuggles against my neck to let me know she missed me too! Or the way if I sit there talking too long holding RG to Jordan she will lean her head in front of my face and smile as big as she can as if to say I'm here too mommy let's hit the road mommy! It's really too cute!!! Our times in the evenings go by too fast! By the time she is in bed I'm completely exhausted but I just love her! She's my whole world and I can't imagine life without her! Even with all her major messes she makes for me to clean she brings joy to my life as she explores every nook and cranny in this house... And I mean all of them! Tonight she discovered she could lift the toilet seat on her own?!!! Where oh where do they learn to be such inquirers??? I love it!! My little explorer seems to be on a new mission every night and I just love watching how much joy she gets out of the simple things in life!
Work is going well too! I love my team! We work well together and the planning is really coming together! Its definitely a lot of work with all the new stuff we are learning but we are truly doing the best we can! And did I mention I love my class???!!! Blessings for sure! They are too sweet!!! They make me smile! Today they told me "NOO I don't want to go home I want to keep learning!!!" three more chimed in and said the same thing! I mean can we say heart stop beating??? Jaw dropped huge smile slapped across my face??? I'm loving it!
Home is going well! Drew is wonderful! Sweet husband! He has actually been helping around the house more which is a huge burden off my chest. Also, tomorrow he starts a bible study at church. I'm quite proud of him for taking this next step! God is good!
We are blessed... Busy but truly blessed. Some days are harder than others but when I take a step back and look at it all... It's all worth it! Happy family, happy students= happy me! God is using me to do His work and I plan to continue to glorify Him in all that I do!
Be blessed! I Hope you all take a second to thank God for the craziness of your days! Sometimes it may feel like a blessing in disguise but breath it will all be worth it! Be blessed and thanks for reading!
Thursday, August 16, 2012
3:30 wake up call
Ohhh Raegan Grace!
It's now 4:45 and we are sitting here rocking. Mommy has to wake up in one hour to get ready for work and you are awake..
Mommy was so desperate for sleep I even tried letting you cry It out! GASPPPP!!! I know! So not me, but we all reach a breaking point. And I must say although I tried to win, you my dear prevailed and said watch this and continue to cry for over 45 mins while mommy listened to you get worse and worse before I couldn't take it any more and my thoughts were well it's been 45 mins and she's still going strong I'm NEVER getting any sleep! I could have already gone in calmed you down and been back to sleep myself and now here it is 45 mins later and the calming process hadn't even started yet. Soo needles to say here mommy is practicing the wait it out method now. You are in my arms still whimpering some but slowly falling back asleep. It must be those stupid teeth! Mommy is ready for this stage to be over! It sucks!!! Seriously! I do believe in part its partly attachment. But dang child you are so strong willed! 10 months old and kicking mommy's butt! Ha!
I know this too shall pass (I'm telling myself that). It's been a month or so more of this. At least tonight you got about 7 hours of sleep before waking up instead of your lately normal 2-3. So that's improvement right???
Oh sweet girl! It's now 5 am. Ohhh dear! I'm debating just staying up, but I doubt that shall be the case! Let's go lay you down and pray for rest! Good night my sweet blessing! I love you to the moon and back forever and always!
Love,
Mommy
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DearGod,
I'm asking for sleep. Sleep for my precious baby girl and sleep for me. Routines are changing now with school back in place and well we all need our rest. Help us Lord to get some much needed sleep. Ease Raegan's teething pain. And Lord if some of this is attachment help us both know how to overcome this little glitch in our sleep pattern!
Praying for sleep and rest in the Smallwood household!
In Your name I pray,
AMEN!!!
* and please no one comment about continuing the CIOM I don't want to hear it. I haven't given this hiccup to God, and well now I have. He will take care of us!
It's now 4:45 and we are sitting here rocking. Mommy has to wake up in one hour to get ready for work and you are awake..
Mommy was so desperate for sleep I even tried letting you cry It out! GASPPPP!!! I know! So not me, but we all reach a breaking point. And I must say although I tried to win, you my dear prevailed and said watch this and continue to cry for over 45 mins while mommy listened to you get worse and worse before I couldn't take it any more and my thoughts were well it's been 45 mins and she's still going strong I'm NEVER getting any sleep! I could have already gone in calmed you down and been back to sleep myself and now here it is 45 mins later and the calming process hadn't even started yet. Soo needles to say here mommy is practicing the wait it out method now. You are in my arms still whimpering some but slowly falling back asleep. It must be those stupid teeth! Mommy is ready for this stage to be over! It sucks!!! Seriously! I do believe in part its partly attachment. But dang child you are so strong willed! 10 months old and kicking mommy's butt! Ha!
I know this too shall pass (I'm telling myself that). It's been a month or so more of this. At least tonight you got about 7 hours of sleep before waking up instead of your lately normal 2-3. So that's improvement right???
Oh sweet girl! It's now 5 am. Ohhh dear! I'm debating just staying up, but I doubt that shall be the case! Let's go lay you down and pray for rest! Good night my sweet blessing! I love you to the moon and back forever and always!
Love,
Mommy
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DearGod,
I'm asking for sleep. Sleep for my precious baby girl and sleep for me. Routines are changing now with school back in place and well we all need our rest. Help us Lord to get some much needed sleep. Ease Raegan's teething pain. And Lord if some of this is attachment help us both know how to overcome this little glitch in our sleep pattern!
Praying for sleep and rest in the Smallwood household!
In Your name I pray,
AMEN!!!
* and please no one comment about continuing the CIOM I don't want to hear it. I haven't given this hiccup to God, and well now I have. He will take care of us!
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